i love this coming week. imagine working only on every alternate day of the week! wheeeee~

but its my saturday duty on so not really alternate days la. nevertheless, i'm satisfy already. if only every week can be like that. my favourite week of the year is actually christmas week because i love christmas. this coming week can be my 2nd favourite week. but alas, it comes only like once in a...long...long...long time.

i remember hari raya was within weeks of chinese new year when i was in secondary school so it was like public holiday after public holiday lor. now hari raya is within weeks or week of deepavali. becoming deeparaya! hee...

christmas is coming too. yay~ ah di is coming home too. woot~ well, so many things to be happy so i shall not be not happy anymore ya.

i am going to be the owner of the best actress award at work. agree at everything. smile at everything. say yes to everything.

yes, i'm going to do just that. i've got a high eq in case you don't know. high eq in my behaviour to those that i don't like. but of course once those i don't like is not in front of me, my temper goes full fledge. haha... pity those around me when those i don't like walks away.

hoping my acting skills won't be worn out. i've made drastic actions already to ensure i won't have to act for so long.

this weekend has been boring and hot. wanted to flat-hunt but feel sleepy all the time. been napping and napping and smsing. haa...

laalalaalalalaa... happy week ahead peeps!

i'm going mad. i'm going crazy. i'm going to die. today is remarkedly one of the worst days of my life.

*sighs* but i shall forget everything from this minute that happen before and remain positive. yes, i shall and i will. no more being upset, angry, sad, depress or frustrated. =)

thank you to my poor training colleagues whom had bore the blunt of me complaining non-stop. thank you to my dearest friends whom had listened. thank you to my most beloved family for being patient.

to a better tomorrow. *cheers*

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all right, i'm feeling better already. was depressed to the infinity earlier. i tell you, i was and still am very very very sad. i hate myself for not liking her but i hate her even more. i wish we all can get along. i really do...

just a quick update on how everyone, and i really mean everyone in the office, that had seen the condition of my storetable being revamped to my table surprised. plus those that hadn't seen the original state, complaining why i was unsatisfied with my table because it looks so nice in the pictures posted.

i feel a sense of accomplishment...for being such...a award-winning efficient maid? should i cry or be happy for myself, i really don't know. all i do know is, i'm really glad i got a place to plop myself down and attack my work.

following that, i must clarify ONE very important thing now now now. WAIT, sidetrack - now now now was my favourite phrase at my previous very enjoyable workplace h*bc because one of a cartoonic manager always like to say now now now and that phrase got stuck with everyone who wants things to be done in a hurry, so just say now now now and its done, keke... how i miss h*bc. *sighs*

everyone has been asking why i'm back with d*s since i'm not at all happy. answer is i don't know. don't ask me. i really don't know. or maybe i say the reason may seem ridiculous to some whom don't understand my situation on career progression but logical to others whom really understand the issues i'm facing.

well, anyways, its not that important now since i'm already here. so i shall will be happy, try to be happy, learn to be happy and stay very happy while i'm here. its always the attitude that counts you know. =)

haha... side track so LONG. to continue my ONE very important point, is that i do not blog or even surf the net during office hours. at h*bc, i have all the unlimited web access but i did not ONCE surf the net for personal pleasure. (ok la, maybe ONCE lor. haha... really just once ONCE or er, TWICE. keke...) its mostly for work like yellow pages to find contact numbers or street directory for addresses and postal codes or other char-ba-lang what nots.

not to mention that now hor, its restricted net access lor. d*s think we children lor. restrict us. machiam we will go play friendster or download irc can. bo liao right!

honestly, its not that i don't want to do all this fun stuffs la, but i really got no time at all. the day is hardly enough for me to finish my work and some days i knock off at 10pm. plus, when i'm not busy, i try to do other miscellaneous things work-aiding things like print extra relevant forms for future usage, pack files etc etc. i'm a model employee ok!

i'm highlighting this, because well, haa, a couple of my colleagues read my blog and find that i got so much time...to blog in office. ok la, not all, only......"yes, alvin, i'm talking about YOU! so, see, i specially dedicate this part of my entry for you to tell you, i not slacker like you hor, surf net during office hours ok."

hee... no la no la, actually alvin is also very conscientious.just that the f-up bank, sometimes just screws up on our jd (job description, for those a little lost on my acroynms), training schedules and blah blah blah... so much so that, staffs like alvin gets stuck somewhere and doing nothing at the moment.

wish i can also do nothing at the moment but just hang around lor. i'm already like 300% operational. hais... today i so clever somemore, go shred some very crucial document. god...

so yup, i blog only at home and no where else. not even my friends or parents place because blogging needs a certain type of environment. not conducive, blogging juice won't flow lor. =P

i was trying to locate all those entries that has d*s in it and amend it. scarely they sued me for slandering based on my last entry. just in case they hire a platoon of staff to google or yahoo out blogs that badmouth them since they got so much things to be badmouth about lor. ma fan right!

but with all the hoo-haa over blogging, i better be proper else, the next time i see you all, might be behind the glass wall liao lor. i see some of you are smirking. wishing i'm behind the glass right? one word - EVIL!

hmmmm, i got so much things to complain about actually. my colleagues, my meetings, my jd, my office, my boss... but i can never finish.

remember months back when i went back h*bc and i was talking about the guy sitting beside me whom was extremely untidy. now with my current colleagues, i think i was making a mountain out of a molehill then lor.

here, i have a colleague whom ignores me and another whom is scary to the core - revengeful, insincere, fickle, proud... well, the list for this particular colleague just goes on and on and on.

i don't know how i'm going to survive. just hope that another new colleague whom would be joining us in december, in exactly the same position as us, can stand, think, work, walk, action on the same line as me. starting to pray from this very minute. pray for me too, will you? her name is stacie neo...

*phew* after spending about a day to clear up the new office, i finally finally finally got a table. my own superior 'dua' me also lor. i previously mentioned that she was going to relocated another staff so that i can take-over his table right. then she 'chu' pattern and gave away that table to another colleague can! kaos...

heng i got...hmmm...whats the word...ai ya, anyways, so i was devastated for a while but during this while, racked my mind because if i don't, the next thing would be my resignation on my superior's desk!

in the end, i managed to clear up the space where they weren't using and it was dumped with boxes under the table, files, cabinets, trays on top of it to the maximum till you cannot even recognised its a table in the first place.

the reason why it wasn't occupied was because there is no lan point to log into the network when i asked why no one is using it and piled high with stuffs but of course, i asked only after i realised that, THAT is actually a table.

so i checked if its ok to sit there since the 'original' plan was modified to accomodate someone else. and they say as long as i can connect to the network, i can do what i please.

thus, i explored on ways to utilised the existing lan points.

FIRST problem - the patch cord i was using was too short to 'extend' my lan point and the standard available patch cords are 3m in length and any deviation requires a special requisition which takes a even longer time to deliver because you need to e-mail for quotation from the vendor lor. but i can't wait anymore as that would take another week or so sitting at the current sickening shelf.

then SECOND problem - i can't buy my own patch cord because they said that outside patch cords don't work, must order through the bank. and that would be the above mentioned process. STUPID right? no wonder my e*pl*yer is named Damn Bloody Stupid or Silly or Stingy or Sickening bank. (amended 24-10-2005 @ 11.02pm - due to slandering issues, must be more discreet la hor) its all so apt lor!

but HENG, heaven was on my side lor. because i snooooooooped around and saw a extremely long patch cord hiding. i was so excited but not without some people pouring cold water saying that "it might not work you know because that patch cord is for that lan point so cannot anyhow change lan point one ok." wa lau, she thinks she very expert but heng i join a IT company before and got a bit of knowledge ok. even if it doesn't work at the end of the day, at least i tried right?

so i swopped the lan points between anther colleague's pc, my laptop and stuffs (pretty technical here so i shall skip it) and TA DAH, my system is up and running. setup ALL BY MYSELF!

i should have taken a picture before i shifted and i think all of you would be mega amazed by the change from storetable to table lor.

now, i think all of them are jealous of my excellent 'feng shui' seat and i thoroughly love my new office already. it doesn't matter if the place is run down, as long as, i have my own tiny little space!

oh ya, just wanna say thanks to mengli jie because she's the one that thought me how to do the polariod effect above. so nice right! anyone wants the tutorial on that just drop me a taggie with your e-mail and i can send it to you.

happy weekend peeps...

just finishing reading a story to regan. that's what i try to do every night before he sleeps. a story. been reading classics like 3 little pigs, jack and the beanstalk etc etc as i suppose that's part of a childhood. so as a mom, i must ensure he got childhood right? i mean and i'm sure everyone knows the stories on the above mentioned mah correct not? got people don't know one meh? i think if don't know really got serious problems already!

thus i must inculcate those must-know-s classic tales to regan lor. very bad mummy liao. if people laugh at him because he don't know next time i become the worst mummy. worst is worse than bad ok.

i'm so happy that i'm working so near office now. just a 20 minutes bus ride away. its been so long since i work so near. the last one was 2 years back and it was at dbs bukit batok. i guess being the largest bank in singapore with such a big network they can put you at a branch near your house. =)

but i do have colleagues not as lucky as me too. like one stays at bedok work at thomson branch, another stays at tiong bahru works at parkway parade. but then again, thomson branch and parkway parade branch is not near anyone la. haha...

work is getting better. i guess it can't get any worse from my last entry because it was already at its most jia lat situation lor. my only grouse is i don't have a proper table. i'm going to type a letter to ministry of manpower to complain lor. we got RIGHTS one ok! there is a standard guidelines given by mom on the minimum workspace for each employee lor!

i'm so deprive. can you imagine my laptop is place on a shelf and i've have to sit sideways to do my work. wa lau! how to work you tell me? hopefully as promised by my boss, she will arrange a table for me soon as she do have empty unoccupied table lor, just that its somewhere else and she wants the centre to sit together according to the group function like there's the service team and sales team.

thus, another guy whom is not really from our centre (doing mortgages) would be moved to sit elsewhere and i can sit at his desk. please please please, let it be faster, earlier and quicker. if not you see me walking sideways next time liao!

i'm under the service team by the way. i hate doing sales. or rather banking products sales. though i should think its rather lucrative but its just not me trying to hardsell or product push something to someone whom don't need it.

but think again, actually, when i go shopping buy clothes, i also get upsell like crazy and i fall for it myself. and for us bankers, we are actually trying to get customers to invest and grow their retirement funds. we are not, in fact, asking them to spend their money lor. hmmm, i suddenly got new insights while blogging. haha... like a angel and devil inside me debating.

i think i too long never blog suddenly got so much to yak about. =P

i really want to blog one lor. like last night i spend like 1 whole hour doing the "7 things" questionaire but i gave up. kaos, i can only think of maximum 4 things to write per topic lor. think my life is not so exicting like others can write so many things can. *boo*

anyways, yup, its still under 'draft' status. got time then i brainstorm properly then post it up ok. in the meantime it shall stay there for awhile which honestly is an eyesore seeing that post in green. i hate pending things actually. i'm very prompt in my work or personal life one. albeit i'm always late for appointments but thats a different la hor. punctuality and efficiency are 2 separate matters right not? heh...

oh ya, backtrack a little to the fairy tales part, i think hor, all the fairy tales like so cruel one. why must there be death? its a children BOOK leh! like jack and the beanstalk, the giant eat children, fell to his death and jack's mother even said "well done jack!" or snow white right, the version i borrowed from the library was so gross i read 3 pages and stopped "the stepmother salted and ate the liver and heart thinking it belonged to snow white." *pukes*

sometimes i got to change the story a little to make it less gruesome or cruel or evil or petty lor. i mean jack can forgive the giant what. so sometimes i will change and say "jack chopped down the beanstalk and the giant fell to the ground cutting his leg. jack immediately send the giant to the hospital and they became friends happily ever after." see, so much nicer right not?

i mean we are suppose to teach children good morals like forgive and forget, treat evil with kindness and stuffs ma. else later grow up selfish, mean and evil how?

read somewhere that its been documented that actually grimm brothers stories were meant for adults than children when it was first written long long ago lor. hmmm, wonder why become children books hor?

i simply hate my new office. its extremely claustrophobic - messy, smelly, stuffy. grrrrr... its known i'm a neatrophobic so i really do not know if i can live through that after-a-warehouse-sale state of environment.

sincerely hope i don't detest my work. first day back at the center today after 3 full weeks of training. but not after lots of hoo-haa of where i (or rather my batch of comrades-in-arms) should report to - training center at tampines or our actual workplace itself which is bukit timah for me. *sighs*

bad bad bad start... after the bad bad bad beginning with senior management on my first day of work. should have known that, that is an omen itself. too late for any regrets. gotta pull up my socks, pull down my hat, bite my teeth and survive it.

wish me luck!